masih bertahan.

16 July 2011, genap la 2 bulan aku berada di tempat orang.
genap la 2 bulan aku tak jumpa dgn encik afiq ♥ . ;(

i truly truly miss home. where i can do anything i want. lay around all day long. online all day long. masak all day long. keluar makan ngan mama and syafiq. jumpa my dearest afiq. hangout dengan aliens.

khabar aku?
i am still surviving. makan okay la. wpun tak tentu sangat makan. alhamdulillah masih sihat. cuma sekarang aku agak kelaparan. dengan berbekalkan roti butterscotch, aku akan harung malam ni and esok pagi dengan baik. *clap hands!*

assignments aku?
sama je macam assignment course lain. banyak and challenging. presentation je manjang.. oh meng!!! assignment public speaking tak start lagi! dang it!

masscom okay ke?
aku sebagai budak masscom yang low profile, masih berada atas landasan diri aku sendiri. belum lagi terpesong ke mana2. aku masih terpegang teguh kepada amanat, nasihat dan segala jenis at.

dorm amacam?
aku masih menjadi illegal di bilik orang. bukan tak suka bilik sendiri. cuma tak berapa nak selesa. so, kak fara -- jangan la terasa.

rindu aku kat orang kat miri tu memang takkan habis tau. betapa aku nak balik miri wey! sampai hati flight balik miri tak tunggu aku. chait!
balik nanti, aku nak :

• jumpa afiq. spend time ngn afiq. i love you and miss you terribly sayang..


• jumpa family. have fun ngn family.


• jumpa aliens. go crazy with them. bowling okay? :)


• makan makanan fav aku. mama, masak for me? :)


• enjoy my comfort zone kat rumah. the best.

sekarang ni dah start cuti mid sem. tambah la aku bosan. perasaan aku nak balik miri tu, semakin membuak-buak. and now, i feel like crying.

emo la sekarang. i think aku akan balik bilik and tido.

with so much boredom, sadness and missingness inside me,

me.

baru tahu

rasa macam dah bertahun-tahun aku kat sini. aaaaa!
can somebody magically poof me to miri?
please.
haihhh..

so -- yesterday i went to bandar melaka. dengan shah n arisha.
NAIK BAS. :D PUBLIC TRANSPORT.
culture shock! muka driver bas tu dah la ganas. the conducter pulak cakap kasar-kasar.
the journey was so long! dari kampus ke bandar melaka was like -- an hour ++. macam dari miri pegi... err.. niah? yeaah. or bekenu. :) hehe..

if i were to make the differences, i'd rather go for the public transport in miri.
and aku tak pernah pun naik bas kat miri. except for the one untuk pegi competitions and lawatan.

dengan cuit yang cukup-cukup makan. mama bagi seratus je untuk survive sampai hujung bulan.
nak beli buku lagi, nak bayar tu, bayar ni.
aku baru tahu untuk berjimat.
teeheee.. baru rasa hidup duit kurang. :) ah well.
aku limitkan diri aku untuk beli 5 barang sahaja semalam.
sangatttt tergoda dengan barang-barang kat tesco. baru masuk tesco!
belum lagi masuk mall lain! habis la aku. haha.

i ended up buying -- 5 things! congrats jihan. haha.
hari ni, im fasting. atas 2 sebab. nak ganti puasa and sebab xda duit. kesian tak?
and today -- first day masuk class. and awal-awal lagi, kelas dah kena cancel. -.- i woke up early today sebab excited. tengok2, kena cancel. oh well. ada masa untuk aku online. hehe.

bertuah betul la budak ni. bukak lagu long distane pulakkkk.
now i really really really am missing my dearest afiq. :(

dah.

with love,
me.

when things go out of hands

i am so glad to say that i am now in seattle! :) *hip hip hoorayyyyy!*
it has been about a week now.
last week, we were in Los Angeles. visiting disneyland, universal studios and california adventure
park. it was so much fun! :D
sangat tak sangka i actually rode most of the scary rides. crazyyyyy!
-.- i left my jantung and all my other organs on the rides. haha.

pictures will be put up in facebook when comes the right time. *kemalasan melanda*

now in seattle is 2.50PM, Friday, June 10, 2011.
in malaysia is 5.50AM, Saturday, June 11, 2011.
ye, kami lambat sehari.

kakya will be graduating on saturday. that is tomorrow! yeah yeahhhh.
congratulations and lots of love to my dearest sister, cik zurriya. :)
segila-gila dia pun, she is graduating with HONORS. cayak ko?
hahahah. yes, its true. with honors.
dem bladi praud of her! :D
*clap hands*

i bought a new dress for the event. short dress! at lastt. dapat jugak short dress!
comel la. nanti la upload gambar. haiyaa. still in malas mode. and missing mode.
huhuhu.

i -- miss --boyfriend. AFIQ.
aiyakkkkk.
truly truly missing him.
he is currently in kuching. visiting his grandmother.
sangat tak best bila dia tak dapat online. sebab since im in seattle -- itu je cara untuk stay in touch. kalo kat malaysia, still boleh call or sms.

all i can do now is-- wait and let myself suffer dengan sadness from all the songs he gave.
patience is virtue. patience is virtue. patience is virtue.
i can do this. sabar.
just think that -- he is doing okay and missing you too.

dont cry too much okay? he loves you so much. dont worry. as he said, he's been busy with family stuff and works, therefore -- you have to be understanding and just be patient.
he is missing you too. he is also feeling miserable without you around him. :) *pujuk diri sendiri*

i just need to hear from him. as long as i know he is okay, then -- i'm fine with it.
even then, i will still miss him in person.

news right now : maybe i can't be home in miri for raya. because uitm only cuti for one week. from the 27th August to 7th September.
mama said, 'pendek sangat la awak cuti. tak berbaloi duit mama.'
please mama. jangan buat saya nangis. saya nangis mengalir habis-habis bila mama cakap macam tu. mama, moments. moments.
saya akan mintak duit dari ayah then. i will come back. kalo korang nak raya kat kelantan, go ahead. i'll stay in miri alone. i can still live.
by just writing like this pun aku dah rasa nak nangis.
i have to go back.
i miss my aliens. i miss my boyfriend.
how can i not raya with them? that is just not cool.
selama ni pun, diorang yang lebih kenal aku daripada --- malas la cakap.
nanti orang cakap aku ni lupa daratan.
my only kampung is, miri. no where else.
i have to raya in miri.
you want me go to back to kelantan? yes, i'll go but NOT masa raya.

saya nak balik miri.
saya nak balik miri.
saya nak balik miri.

aliens, rindu ngn ktkorg bhhhhhhh! :(((
sayang, i miss you. i love you. come save me. come for me. i'm dying.

with lots of love and so miserably missing my dearest dearest afiq and lovely aliens,
me.

new

i survived a week in my new place.
setakt ni, okay la. baru lepas MDS. which stands for Minggu Destini Siswa. which means orientation week. :)

found new friends sudah. :)
mari saya kenalkan.

1. Shah Hadfina (shah) - Kedah
2. Farah Izzaty (farah) - Puncak Alam
3. Syafinor Arisha (arisha) - Pulau Pinang
4. Nur Fatihah Nadia (ann) - Klang
5. Wan Hanis Sophia (sophia) - Melaka

left to right : farah, jihan, shah, arisha.

taken by sophia. ann dah letih, so tak larat nak ambik-ambik gambar.
this was taken masa minggu destini siswa, dekat dataran keris, uitm alor gajah.

agak okay la campus life now.
i can do this. yes i can!

in this post, i just want to introduce THE BEBAI.
hahaha. buruk sungguh nama itu.


with love,
me.

tempat orang

i am now in Shah Alam. rumah aunty.
i am now so damn bored. nothing to do.
i am now wishing im in miri. funner.

esok akan teruskan perjalanan ke alor gajah, melaka.
harap barang semua dah lengkap.

dah mula homesick.
im sick. homesick. lovesick.

with so much lonesome in me now,
me.

if only

if only you knew,
how often you're on my mind and how just a thought of you can make me happy

if only you knew,
the love for you that's so much a part of me every day

if only you knew,
all those things i fail to say, you'd know you are loved every minute of everyday.

with lots of love and missing you so much,
me.

prayers

he has to go back to mukah tomorrow.
kena buat penilaian khas.
will only come back to miri on the 17th of June.

i have to go continue my studies in alor gajah.
will only be back maybe masa raya nanti.
itupun, kalau mama bagi balik miri.
mama plans to raya in shah alam.

we're supposed to go out tomorrow. tapi, dah dia kena pegi mukah again esok pagi. what can we do?

we spent out time together today. oh sangat sedih.
he gave me this necklace. ohsolovely.
i love it, yes i do.
nanti lah ambik gambar and put it up here.

rasa macam masa tu jalan laju sangat bila kita taknak dia laju.
kejam kan?

today : we went bowling, pantai and just enjoying every second we have together.

honestly, i am not ready for this separation.
tapi, orang cakap -- belajar untuk berjauhan dari awal relationship.
orang mana yang cakap tu? agak *pandai*.
apa motif nya? so that every moment we are together, we will cherish and treasure it and not waste it.
mungkinkah agak betul? yaaa. sangat betul. :)

well, me and him berjauhan pun sebab belajar. it is for our own future.
brighter future for us.

we will be together again, my love.

with so much love for you and only you,
me.