im alive. energize more than ever!

im back! from KEM PLKN SG. RAIT, MIRI.
woahh. so many things i learned yet so little time spent there and i dont think i miss anything about it.
cukup la sekali aku pegi. enough is enough. orang selalu tanya, 'kalau dapat peluang pegi lagi, nak pegi tak?' my answer would be, 'no thank you.'
the experience there is so greatly vast. but, i dont think i want to repeat the thing again.
the waking up early, the classes, the race against time moments, the same 'ol routine everyday. what a life i had there.

during camp, i had my birthday. :) and the truth is, this year's birthday is the best i ever had. walaupun agak sedih have to celebrate dalam kem. here's why :

1. first time in my life, kena prank -- kena simbah dengan 2 baldi air sejuk n kena baling dengan bedak. since our supplies untuk prank xcukup, so -- we just have to make do dengan apa yang ada. haha! kesian.
   
2. second and its the best. i celebrated my birthday with my love. afiq sang for me. lagu selamat ulang tahun sayang by imran ajmain. ♥ iloveyou sayang! :)
   

seribu kali terima kasih to all the teachers. cikgu dzul, cikgu bad, cikgu nina, cikgu ani, cikgu rahmat, cikgu ed, cikgu simon, cikgu min, cikgu joe, cikgu arence, cikgu stacy, cikgu titty, cikgu ai, cikgu khamis, cikgu --- semua lah! hehehe.. thanks for everything and thank you sebab sudi melayan perangai sy. hehe..

and to all my kawan PLKN. nada, nisa, nina, fara, fatin, ya, aidil. i love you all sebab meng-happy-kan my days in kem. same goes to everybody kat kem yang nama x di sebut. kalau sebut semua-- sampai esok tak habis. haha! budak bilik P4A, semua budak ALPHA, BRAVO, CHARLIE and DELTA.

to my family. mama and syafiq -- thanx sebab sanggup datang evry sunday to see me. ngehehe..

to my sayang. afiq. thank you for every song you sang, every phone call, every message, every joke, everything. :) thank you sebab sanggup awaits every saturday n sunday. thank you sebab call me every week to ask me how am i, to ask what am i doing, to -- everything. making me smile when i feel like killing people.

now that im back, i have plans. yeahhh baby! :)

with love,
me.

drum roll untuk 2011

*drum roll*

sama-sama kita nyanyi lagu final countdown! :)
today, 29122010. just few more days til 2010 to end.
what have i achieve throughout this year?

http://hikayattiadajudul.blogspot.com/2009/12/2010.html

1. jadi budak baik -- CHECK! :DD
   
2. belajar lebih supaya otak tenang masa SPM -- CHECK! *i hope*
3. kurus -- jengjengjeng ..... not YET.
4. dihormati, disenangi -- CHECK! *i think*
   
5. senyap lebih dan cakap kurang -- tak pernah tercapai. oops. :)
6. anak solehah -- masih on the way.
   
7. lebih tenang bila hadapi rintangan -- mungkin.
   
8. lebih bagus dalam karya seni tulisan -- tidak berganjak. sama saja.
9. teguh semangat kerjasama -- mungkin sikit. at least ada daripada takda langsung, kan?
10. hidup aku, kawan, keluarga, guru sentiasa sejahtera -- CHECK! insyaAllah.
    

4 of out 10. kira okay lah. ada yang separuh jalan. ada yang aku tak pasti. at least aku ada buat something. terkilan jugak lah tak dapat capai hasrat no.9. well, nevermind. i've done my part.

alright! 2011! i wonder whats in store for me? i hope i get to fulfill all my azam baru next year. the following is my list of azam baru :

1. i hope for a long lasting relationship. ♥
2. i hope for a great spm results.
3. i hope for a placement in the best university
   
4. i hope for a happy family.
5. i hope for a time of my life.
6. i hope for a never ending relationship with my fav aliens.
7. i hope for a broader mind and knowledge and experience.
   
8. i hope for a bright future.
9. i hope for a stable financial security
10. i hope for a better and happier life.

ahhh -- next week.
im going for plkn. melapor diri on the 3rd of january.
so, im gonna be off from 3rd jan to chinese new year break, then continue again until 13 march. then im done with it. its not that long. and i hope i survive through it.

looking forward for the chinese new year break.

1. meeting afiq. ♥

yes. i still am looking forward to it. i miss him a lot. A LOT.
hope he calls me again before i go off to kem sg rait next week.
i think i need to say something to him. such as -- how i like him so much and miss him every single day.
tapi, aku dah pernah confess once. and it was AWFUL. seriously. but then, it was a badddddddd choice. totally bad choice.
at least IF i confess to afiq, it MAY be a good choice and a good judgment.

nevermind. we'll wait and see. till then, i'll wait for him.
imissyoualotafiq. ♥

with love,
me.

news today

so yeaaa. uncle razif called mama tadi. he gave us the not-so-happy-not-so-sad news.
with his help and kindness, apparently i got the first batch for plkn. hrmm.
i dont know what to feel and what to say.

1. thank you uncle razif for ur help!!
2. yes! i get to go to Seattle next year!! woohhooo!!!
3. i cant call him..
4. he cant call me..
5. i cant talk to him
6. i cant be around my family
7. i cant facebook
8. i cant tweet

cukup lah. i guess 8 makes it more than afdal.
crucial gilaa num 3, 4, 5 and 6. i can die u knoww.
nasib i still get to go out on chinese new year.
haihh.. nanti lah i call him and tell him about this. jangan laaaa he go and laugh again. he is veryyyyyy bertuah punya budak. -.- well.. harung jelah. aku yang nak.. haha!

aiyaa. why oh why me so tak excited hear this news?
maybe, currently, im in still in lazy-to-do-anything mode.
and now, i feel like sleeping.

ive been busy with the family reunion preparation.
performance, video, music. -- thats my field. aiyaamakkk belom siap lah the video and music.
pening. tadi dah telan 2 panadol.

------- end of that story.
gosh. how i miss him everyday.
now, its talking on the phone with him.
it used to be just some sms with intervals of 4-5 days.
haha! if i were in my mum's place, i would so damn bored with me. because everyday, the topic would be about him. but i dont think mama penat dengar anak mama cakap pasal afiq kan? tahan jelah mama.. :D

HAHAHAHAHA! ♥ ♥

with love,
me.

the day the phone rang.

my phone rang yesterday evening.
it was him! ♥

that was our first phone conversation. actually kan, that was my first time hearing his voice.
it was about 10 mins conversation. who cares 10 mins or 5 mins or 1 min? the main thing is, HE CALLED. hearts hearts hearts!!! ;)

waa. i miss him.
well, it turns out that he is already back in his study place a week ago.
what a boomer. date cancelled. :(
kesian me. he told me that he was actually VERY VERY FREE the whole time he was in miri.
arghh. imagine, if he was following his sister to the school that day, i would have met him.
but, on second thought, i would not be concentrating on my exam paper that day.
ish. nevermind lah.

jadi, he wont be coming back to miri until cny next year. ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have to wait for that long now????? aiyaa.
stupid bah malaysian government. why do you have make it a point for them to start the learning session so early??? cant it be like normal school? where you start the p&p process on january??? stupid rule.
cubalah government selaraskan these things. why do you need to make it lain2??
stupiddddddddd!

oh, plkn. i told him about it. he laughed!!! -.- bertuah punya org. nasib baik im in - with him. HAHAHAHAHA! :)
now im having second thoughts on going for the first batch.
but i still wanna go to seattle. dont care.
ish. xmao ckp about plkn.
oh, i bought him something today. comel! bought one for me, one for him.
the thing is a pair.

omg. i cant even open my eyes now. so tired after jalan2 dgn my fav aliens today.
jumpa bantal -- :)

imissyou afiq. ♥
thanks for calling me yesterday and making me smile.
again next time ok? or maybe i will call you pulak. MAYBE. hehe. :)

with love and always,
me.

few days away.

its 3rd of december today. in 8 mins time, it will be 4th of dec.
just counting the days and times. tick tock tick tock.

things that i look forward to after SPM ::
1 - PROM NIGHT!!! woot woot!!!
2 - my date with him. <3
3 - family reunion
4 - bbq!
5 - the fact that i survived high school. *happy moments*

just day away --
feeling like screaming my head off!!!! the ANXIETY!

till then, im just gonna fill my head with the few more subjects.
push everything aside first. *which i most probably wont*

alrighty.
gonna see my second sweetheart, bed.

♥, imy to the hard core!!!
cant wait to see you.

with so much anxiety and love,
me.

it feels like .. FLY HIGH BABEH!

"lkak ktk abis spm, msg kmk.. ney tauk bleh jln sma2."
"ok.. kmk abis jak exam, kmk msg ktk.."
♥

do i really have tell the story? i dont think so. you get it. kan? :)

with much love,
me.

its my thangg!

eh! serupa la kita~

ok.
so, perjuangan aku selama 5 tahun akan bermula hari selasa depan. 231110 - 151210.
SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA wok!

bahasa melayu bahasa inggeris mathematics sejarah pendidikan islam est additional mathematics biology chemistry physics

yang hijau aku akan confirmkan dapat A+
yang biru yang at least harap dapat A-
yang merah aku no komen.

strive for excellence babeh!
selama ni aku banyak main-main dalam study.
wuwuwu..
tapi, aku menangis air mata darah pun tak guna.
buat bazir je adalah.
battle akan start next week.

15 december, i will as free as a bird.
YEAHHHH!!
waiting for the day. yes. =)

16 december, aku akan pegi prom. woot woot! hot gila!
planning on going with my babes. mmg coolio lah!
tapi . . you know what would be nicer?
if i have a date for prom.
ergh! unfortunately, he is going back to college on the 4th of dec.
*if he is going to be here, macam lah i have the courage to ask him out. haha!*
well, tak salah to at least dream about it kan? 8)

eh, sebelum lupa. Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha!

my dearest,
why do u have to go back sooooo early??
aiya. if u are here in miri, even if we dont see each other, at least i know u are close to me.
haih. nevermind.
i'll be missing you so much, afiq.
sumpah imy.
olait, get back to books.

with much much much love,
me.