nasib

nasib baik tak ramai orang tahu about this blog.
kalau tak, orang akan tambah meluat dengan all my post.
most of it, mesti ada nama 'afiq' <--- here's one more!
hahahah.

NASIB LAAA! kalau x suka, jgn baca. my blog. sukati aku la. okeh?

thank you loveliest.

with love,
me.

its 29th of april

congratulations to His Royal Highness Prince William and Her Royal Highness Princess Kate, the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge. :)
what a service that was.
i love the wedding dress! love it. wish it's mine in the future. haha! *sangat berangan*

i didnt get to see the whole event actually. haha. i saw the first part and the last part. i didnt see the main event.

why oh why?

because! i went to pick up my sayang kat terminal bus tadi. woot woot!!! i just love him to bits and pieces.
yes, he is back already! and im so happy! ♥ ♥ ♥

lepas pick him up tadi, we went to the pasar malam. beli makanan for orang kat rumah.
then, pegi balik rumah cikgu.
uish.. aku rasa macam aku pulak yang disambut. the sisters was so happy to see me. i was happy to see them!!! i really felt like a part of the family already. thank you dearest future family. hahaha!

itu je nak cerita actually. :) teeheee. i love my dearest afiq ♥

with love,
me.

go with the flow

dengan penuh sabar, aku menunggu tarikh keramat untuk dia balik.
29 april 2011, datanglah cepat sikit.

so -- updates!

i just came back from KL.

1. applied for US Visa. and it is aprroved! :)
2. UiTM interview. Mass Communication. which have always been my interest. i think, i did quite well for it.
3. keluar dengan kawan kem. nada, ya, fara & galah.
   

first. about US and UiTM.
oh my god.. im so torn between two worlds.
the plan is : we are going to the US on the 28th of may. end of may.
the most anticipated event!
then -- here comes a curve ball.
UiTM : intake is in MAY.

so, chances of me going to US is? IF i request for the december intake, would they allow it? i mean like -- punya lah ramai orang nak masuk U cepat-cepat. lagi-lagi, UiTM. here i am -- nak tangguh sbb nak pg US. well, it is a maybe once in a lifetime experience. kan? so, how now? i dont know. i really really wanna go to US. and i really wanna get started dengan my studies.

dah la kalau i dont go to US, tiket semua dah book -- hotel pun -- takkan la nak burn macam tu je? itu semua duit okay. bukan senang nak cari duit. sorang is like -- RM3000.
sayang la duit.

haih. okay. next! UiTM interview. it went well i think. i answered dengan penuh confidence.
antara soalan cepumas; apa nama CM sarawak? sapa nama bini baru CM Sarawak. hahaha!
soalan senang. hahaha! and she was like -- oh, you know! you really do have the characteristics of a journalist! and my reaction? -- oh? really? thank you! *with the biggest smile on my face*
percentage of me getting it? 60% maybe? too much --? yeah.

entah la. i want it. but at the same time, i want US too.
really really hoping i cant get the best of both worlds.

nak cerita about my outing dengan geng plkn kat midvalley last saturday. tapi, mcm no mood pulak nak cerita.
skip this one. :)

29th april! i am so waiting anxiously for this day to come. the day that he is coming back for good. i miss him terribly. gosh. i really can go crazy waiting.
imagine how deeply and madly in love i am right now. well, he IS my first REAL love.

afiq sayang, i'll be waiting for you. and i'll be there when you reach miri. okay? i'll be the one yang sambut ktk dr terminal bas kelak, ok? i'll be there with the biggest smile on my face. lamak dah kita tunggu 29 april tok nk? it's going to come soon. i love you so much. please know that i'm missing you so much.
every second i have. trust me.

oh, i'm so in love. i ♥ you so much, encik afiq. :)

with the deepest love to the core,
me.

never thought i'd think about this ..

hello blogness! :) it has been about 2 weeks. haha.
agak tak betul lah intro kali ni.

UPDATES!

1. spm results : 1A+2A 1A- 2B+ 2C 2D
2. future diploma course : mass communication
   
3. future college : taylor's @ UiTM -- still thinking.
   
4. madly in love
   
5. worried.

kaitkan semua. walaupun its not suppose to be a problem -- i am actually very very worried.
all my life, i want to be the best. i want to further my studies. that has always been a priority in my life. i have chosen to be in taylor's or UiTM. both are in KL.

for the first time in my life, i am deeply in love. and this time, its real. not imaginary boyfriend. haha! he is my first love. i love him to the deepest core of the earth. and he loves me too.

can u relate both of it? and why the fact that im worried?

i am always the one that says, 'alaaaa. relax laaa. kalau dah jodoh, tak kemana nya laaa.. awk rentas laut ke, panjat gunung ke, terbang ke, kalau dah di takdirkan awk dgn dia, mmg awk akn bersama dgn dia..'
but now, im actually IN the situation. and now i know how it feels and how annoying is that statement.

its not that i don't trust him. i trust him. i just don't trust people around him.

i cant deal with this. omg. omg. omg. ttyl.
bye.

with love,
me.

im alive. energize more than ever!

im back! from KEM PLKN SG. RAIT, MIRI.
woahh. so many things i learned yet so little time spent there and i dont think i miss anything about it.
cukup la sekali aku pegi. enough is enough. orang selalu tanya, 'kalau dapat peluang pegi lagi, nak pegi tak?' my answer would be, 'no thank you.'
the experience there is so greatly vast. but, i dont think i want to repeat the thing again.
the waking up early, the classes, the race against time moments, the same 'ol routine everyday. what a life i had there.

during camp, i had my birthday. :) and the truth is, this year's birthday is the best i ever had. walaupun agak sedih have to celebrate dalam kem. here's why :

1. first time in my life, kena prank -- kena simbah dengan 2 baldi air sejuk n kena baling dengan bedak. since our supplies untuk prank xcukup, so -- we just have to make do dengan apa yang ada. haha! kesian.
   
2. second and its the best. i celebrated my birthday with my love. afiq sang for me. lagu selamat ulang tahun sayang by imran ajmain. ♥ iloveyou sayang! :)
   

seribu kali terima kasih to all the teachers. cikgu dzul, cikgu bad, cikgu nina, cikgu ani, cikgu rahmat, cikgu ed, cikgu simon, cikgu min, cikgu joe, cikgu arence, cikgu stacy, cikgu titty, cikgu ai, cikgu khamis, cikgu --- semua lah! hehehe.. thanks for everything and thank you sebab sudi melayan perangai sy. hehe..

and to all my kawan PLKN. nada, nisa, nina, fara, fatin, ya, aidil. i love you all sebab meng-happy-kan my days in kem. same goes to everybody kat kem yang nama x di sebut. kalau sebut semua-- sampai esok tak habis. haha! budak bilik P4A, semua budak ALPHA, BRAVO, CHARLIE and DELTA.

to my family. mama and syafiq -- thanx sebab sanggup datang evry sunday to see me. ngehehe..

to my sayang. afiq. thank you for every song you sang, every phone call, every message, every joke, everything. :) thank you sebab sanggup awaits every saturday n sunday. thank you sebab call me every week to ask me how am i, to ask what am i doing, to -- everything. making me smile when i feel like killing people.

now that im back, i have plans. yeahhh baby! :)

with love,
me.

drum roll untuk 2011

*drum roll*

sama-sama kita nyanyi lagu final countdown! :)
today, 29122010. just few more days til 2010 to end.
what have i achieve throughout this year?

http://hikayattiadajudul.blogspot.com/2009/12/2010.html

1. jadi budak baik -- CHECK! :DD
   
2. belajar lebih supaya otak tenang masa SPM -- CHECK! *i hope*
3. kurus -- jengjengjeng ..... not YET.
4. dihormati, disenangi -- CHECK! *i think*
   
5. senyap lebih dan cakap kurang -- tak pernah tercapai. oops. :)
6. anak solehah -- masih on the way.
   
7. lebih tenang bila hadapi rintangan -- mungkin.
   
8. lebih bagus dalam karya seni tulisan -- tidak berganjak. sama saja.
9. teguh semangat kerjasama -- mungkin sikit. at least ada daripada takda langsung, kan?
10. hidup aku, kawan, keluarga, guru sentiasa sejahtera -- CHECK! insyaAllah.
    

4 of out 10. kira okay lah. ada yang separuh jalan. ada yang aku tak pasti. at least aku ada buat something. terkilan jugak lah tak dapat capai hasrat no.9. well, nevermind. i've done my part.

alright! 2011! i wonder whats in store for me? i hope i get to fulfill all my azam baru next year. the following is my list of azam baru :

1. i hope for a long lasting relationship. ♥
2. i hope for a great spm results.
3. i hope for a placement in the best university
   
4. i hope for a happy family.
5. i hope for a time of my life.
6. i hope for a never ending relationship with my fav aliens.
7. i hope for a broader mind and knowledge and experience.
   
8. i hope for a bright future.
9. i hope for a stable financial security
10. i hope for a better and happier life.

ahhh -- next week.
im going for plkn. melapor diri on the 3rd of january.
so, im gonna be off from 3rd jan to chinese new year break, then continue again until 13 march. then im done with it. its not that long. and i hope i survive through it.

looking forward for the chinese new year break.

1. meeting afiq. ♥

yes. i still am looking forward to it. i miss him a lot. A LOT.
hope he calls me again before i go off to kem sg rait next week.
i think i need to say something to him. such as -- how i like him so much and miss him every single day.
tapi, aku dah pernah confess once. and it was AWFUL. seriously. but then, it was a badddddddd choice. totally bad choice.
at least IF i confess to afiq, it MAY be a good choice and a good judgment.

nevermind. we'll wait and see. till then, i'll wait for him.
imissyoualotafiq. ♥

with love,
me.

news today

so yeaaa. uncle razif called mama tadi. he gave us the not-so-happy-not-so-sad news.
with his help and kindness, apparently i got the first batch for plkn. hrmm.
i dont know what to feel and what to say.

1. thank you uncle razif for ur help!!
2. yes! i get to go to Seattle next year!! woohhooo!!!
3. i cant call him..
4. he cant call me..
5. i cant talk to him
6. i cant be around my family
7. i cant facebook
8. i cant tweet

cukup lah. i guess 8 makes it more than afdal.
crucial gilaa num 3, 4, 5 and 6. i can die u knoww.
nasib i still get to go out on chinese new year.
haihh.. nanti lah i call him and tell him about this. jangan laaaa he go and laugh again. he is veryyyyyy bertuah punya budak. -.- well.. harung jelah. aku yang nak.. haha!

aiyaa. why oh why me so tak excited hear this news?
maybe, currently, im in still in lazy-to-do-anything mode.
and now, i feel like sleeping.

ive been busy with the family reunion preparation.
performance, video, music. -- thats my field. aiyaamakkk belom siap lah the video and music.
pening. tadi dah telan 2 panadol.

------- end of that story.
gosh. how i miss him everyday.
now, its talking on the phone with him.
it used to be just some sms with intervals of 4-5 days.
haha! if i were in my mum's place, i would so damn bored with me. because everyday, the topic would be about him. but i dont think mama penat dengar anak mama cakap pasal afiq kan? tahan jelah mama.. :D

HAHAHAHAHA! ♥ ♥

with love,
me.