di ambang

currently, i have about 8 days left in miri. he is, once again, so right. it is never enough.
leaving again is equally painful with leaving for the first time.

'cuba bayangkan dia takda, kau takkan rasa susah sangat la'
jangan berani persoalkan perasaan aku.
kau tak punya hak untuk persoalkan hal itu.

entah. tiba tiba mixed feelings.
nak nangis, marah, rajuk, gembira.

semuanya sebab nak balik melaka semula.

it's hard. very hard. so, don't question my feelings.
you don't have a clue of what i feel.

mixed feeling,
me